When you feel lost, seek out the one who created you. He will put you back on the right track. He will remind you of who you are.
Looking back on the past few years, I didn’t realize how far I have come from a dark lonely place. I don’t talk about it much, but I truly lost myself for a little bit. I’ve noticed people asking the question “where do I begin to try and find myself? I don’t know who I am anymore.” For me, I started by finding God again, then everything else fell back into place. I am telling you these things now, not for pity or sorrow, but because I know everyone has their own hard times. They come in different shapes and sizes, but we all have them, it’s just a matter of how we handle our darkest times.
I am a woman who at one time started to feel broke and lost. A woman who couldn’t find herself anymore. All I wanted to do was drown myself in my sorrows and self pity. I am woman who prayed so hard everyday, and once I started feeling a little more like myself, I would fall right back down. I am a woman who lost her self worth. I am a woman who never thought she was enough. I am a woman who kept on praying and kept on pleading. I am woman that’s trusting God. I know he has his own timing and I must be patient and wait. Looking back on a year ago, heck even just months ago, I see the growth I have made. I see how much closer I am to becoming who I want to be. I read old quotes I use to write, and remember how I felt when I wrote them. The difference between then and now is amazing. Looking back makes being patient worth wild! If the Lord has done this much already, what is next to come! They say to leave the past in the past and just look ahead. But I say different. When in doubt, turn around! See how far you’ve come from before. Be thankful, patient, but most importantly, trust God!