Vengeful Heart

It’s so easy to be vengeful. It’s so easy just to take a dig at someone who has done you wrong.

Maybe name calling, maybe gossip. It just sometimes feels right, or maybe it satisfies your soul because you “got even”.

Maybe you do things out of spite just to see your opponents reaction thinking “oh yea you got what you deserved”.

Maybe it feels so satisfying when you “get even”.

Well, just because it feels good, it doesn’t make it right. It seems so much easier and the right thing to do in the spir of the moment, but it isn’t.

Romans 12:9-21

Love in Action

9 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13 Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.Practice hospitality.

14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16 Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a]Do not be conceited.

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”[b] says the Lord. 20 On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;

if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.

In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”[c]

21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good

Take Your Sabbath Day

I struggle with not knowing when to stop. I don’t like wasted time. I feel I should be accomplishing something all the time. Even if it’s something small, I have to feel accomplished, or else I will feel like a failure.

The trouble with this is, I don’t know when to take a break. When I do decide to take a day for myself and just relax and do nothing (and let’s be honest, there is no such thing with kids, but hey a girl can try), I completely beat myself up for it.

I start to try to “convince” myself that it’s ok to chillax, your body needs a break too, you can’t take care of everyone else if you have nothing left to give. Then I feel guilty and so on and so forth.

If you’re like me, don’t beat yourself up. It’s ok to not go non stop. It’s ok to take a break. It’s ok to take care of you. Even though you feel like you’ve accomplished nothing, you’ve accomplished refueling yourself to get back in the game.

Don’t ever feel bad for giving yourself a day or a break. The Lord says you work for 6 days and rest on the 7th. You take your sabbath day! Recharge your soul so you can get back to being you!

Gift to God

My grandmother cross stitched this in 1989, or as my 9 year old likes to say, “back in the 1900’s”. I was two years old and for as long as I can remember, my grandmother had it hanging in her house. In 2002 she gifted to me, and since then, I’ve had it hanging where I can read it every morning. Its such an inspirational message I must say.

The Dream of Patience

I had this dream that felt so real and the point behind it was so realistic.

I was at the zoo with my family. I stood in line at the concession stand to get drinks and snacks before we made our trek through the zoo. I stood there with $40 in hand. (Why $40, I don’t know, but I was holding 2 $20 bills.)

I placed my order and went in to hand the cashier a 20. The order was far less than $20, but the cashier grabbed both $20 Bill’s. Confused, but polite I laughed. She did something strange, my $20 was gone and she handed me some change.

I chuckled saying I needed my money back, she politely smiled and said “don’t worry, you will get it back.”

I waited patiently for what seemed like for ever for our order. Gradually I grew impatient, but the cashier kept politely telling me not to worry.

As you can guess, I became extremely impatient as the time passed so I raised my voice, through a little tantrum, and stormed off to find a manager or someone to file a complaint with. As I walked away, the cashier was yelling “be patient”.

I found someone to release my frustrations to, only to be told that it was my problem, and I should work it out with the cashier. Even more aggravated, I turned to walk away. As I walked away, I reached into my pocket and pulled out more money than I had to begin with. More money than the cashier “took” from me.

I stood there bewildered, then I woke up.

I pondered on the dream for a while, then it hit me. How many times do we get impatient with the Lords timing and wanting it now instead of waiting? Once everything falls into place the Lord stands there smiling saying “I told you to be patient.”

Sometimes the Lord has to visit us with scenarios in our dreams to remind us to be patient, trust the process, and trust his timing. Everything will work out better than you imagined, if you just be patient.

Behind Closed Doors

Over the past month, 2 young men took their own lives in my area. They both left behind a child and family that loved them. I don’t know them personally, but I know friends of their’s that shared about them.

Looking at their social media pages, you never would have even known they were struggling.

They both shared posts about future events that they looked forward to, that’s what everyone saw. Not their emotional pain that led them to feel that was their only way out.

Just because someone looks happy, smiles all the time, or seems like they have it all together, doesn’t mean they do.

Everyone has their own different struggles.

Some may be struggling financially.

Some may be struggling with relationships.

Some may be struggling with addictions.

Some struggle with insecurities.

Some are struggling with all of the above.

You never know what someone else is going through. Check on your friends and family. Be kind to your friends and family. Don’t criticize your friends and family.

An attitude you have towards them may be the breaking point, and you never realized they were close to a breaking point. Love everyone and remember, you don’t know what’s going on behind closed doors.

Ps… this is not ment as a blame game, this is a reminder to be kind to others.

Do Not Fear

She sat, gazing at the sky, watching the hawk as it soared up and down searching for its prey. She watched as a crowe flew to attack, only to realize he was no match for the magnificent creature. She pondered, am I like the crowe, or am I like the hawk.

“You’re the Hawk” was what she heard whispered in her ear. “I made you strong, but you must believe and trust me.” She nodded in agreement as she remembered the Lord’s promises of being her shield and to never fear.

Heights were never her favorite, but she knew he was her wings. She would fly amongst the stars as long as she believed. Danger would run in fear of trying to attack. She is the Hawk and he has her back.

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You Can’t Buy Happiness

A few years ago, I woke up on a Monday morning feeling miserable, tired, and just down right blah and unhappy. I had been having a hard time getting and staying motivated. My house began winning the battle of clean over not. I was just overwhelmed….. period.

Then I remembered a friend who had posted on facebook about this vitamin product that gave you natural energy and well, I know you’ve seen all the mlm sales pitches on social media so I don’t have to go into that. I talked with my husband and decided to give it a shot.

Long story short, I LOVED it. I didn’t have a hard time getting going in the mornings, I had clean energy all day, I stayed motivated. My husband even decided to give it a whirl and he loved it as well. But as all things like this go, we used the product for about 6 months, then we were no longer able to afford it, so we stopped taking it.

Of course, as you can imagine, we were bummed. We made comments here and there of how we missed it. But, that was the end of it.

Now, let me tell you another story. I have always been a God’s girl, but these past couple of years I have gotten closer to him. I pray every day, multiple times a day. I read the bible with the kids, and well you get the picture.

One day, I woke up realizing I didn’t miss those “magical vitamins” anymore. I was just plain out happy, motivated, and chasing my dreams. I had started becoming more organized and staying on top of things. (Fot the most part, we all have crazy, busy, unmotivated times regardless)

That’s when I realized, you don’t ever need a “magical fix” for anything. The only thing you need is the holy spirit.

I’m not trying to bash any mlm business. All I’m saying if we would quit chasing the “quick fix” and focusing on the only one who can truly meet our needs, think of how much happier you could be. When you are tired, grumpy, weak, bow your head and give it all to the Lord. Then lift your head with a smile and know that he’s got you. Seek the lord with all thy heart.

“Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means. The Lord be with you all. “2 Thessalonians 3:16 KJV

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. Luke 11:9-10