Faith over Fear

I am a pretty spiritual person. I am not perfect at all and have my fair share of sins. I am as imperfect as they come. But, I know God loves me no matter what and I always turn to him and spend time with him everyday.

That’s one thing the devil doesn’t like. He doesn’t like when sinners put all of their faith into God, so he tries to stir up fear.

I have had a lot of fear in my life, and I didn’t understand why. I developed a fear of heights, I would get nervous and fret everytime we traveled (even though I love traveling), I was afraid to publish my first book, I was afraid to release a song, post to YouTube, submit to songwriting competitions, and many many more fears.

Fear is just apart of life, it’s a lie the devil trys to deceive you with to rob you of joy.

Even though I was afraid, I sat down into deep prayer, took a deep breath, and handed it to God.

While traveling this weekend, I realized I wasn’t a bundle of nerves and worry as we were heading toward our destination.

I pondered all of my other fears that don’t really linger around as often.

Do I still have fears? Why yes I do, I develop new fears and worry every day.

What do I do with the new devil tactics? The same thing I always do…. pray, deep breath, give it to God.

Faith over fear is always the way to go.

If God is for us, who can be against us. Romans 8:31

Air Bud

Does anyone remember the movie Airbud?

You know, the one where the kid moves to a new town, he used to love basketball until his father passed away and he refuse to play anymore.

Until he came across an abandoned basketball court and a runaway golden retriever that he befriends.

He then cleans up the basketball court and starts playing basketball again. His life and spirit comes back to him.

I remember watching that movie as a kid. I loved it. I got outside everyday and played basketball because as a kid, those stories always lit a fire in me.

I wasn’t any good at basketball and I’m still not, but it’s just fun to play.

Today, kids don’t know about Airbud. They don’t know what it’s like to just go outside and find something to do to occupy their time.

They don’t know how to create a hobby or a goal to reach. (No pun intended)

All kids know today is what’s within reach and that’s their tablet.

I’m guilty of it too, my kids got tablets this past Christmas and I am bad about letting them play bc, well, that’s what they want to do.

But are we robbing them from having their own imagination and learning how to occupy themselves and have a good time without being blinded by a screen?

Yes, yes we are.

Yes I understand thats how today times are, but I will tell you, when I take the tablets away and make my kids get out and play, my kids have a hell of a time.

They are laughing, they have imaginations, they are kids, they show different sides of themselves. It’s so much fun!

Yes I know that tablets and video games are today’s world. I’m not against video games by no means. Video games help with creative thinking, if they are actually playing games you have to think in.
Heck, one of our favorite past times is to play our old school games and teach the kids how to play them. You know, the Nintendo 64, old school Mario, Zelda, 007… the good stuff.

But all in all, sitting out here this evening and watching my son playing basketball and my daughter tumbling around in the yard practicing gymnastics, I’m reminded of the movie Airbud.

Are kids today even using their imagination or critical thinking skills to be able to occupy themselves enough to detour away from a screen for 5 minutes?

The answer is simple…. NO!

I’ve seen too many times where tablets and games are to keep kids quite, instead of letting them be kids.

Is this generation of parents using screens too much as a babysitter and robbing our kids of crucial years of their lives?

Again… YES!

When these years are over, they’re over. Like the chapters of a book, when one chapter is done it’s on to the next.  You can always go back and re-read a chapter, but it’s not the same as reading it for the first time.

Let them enjoy the chapters they are in, that way they have something good to look back on.

Take Care of You

I like lists, I am a list maker.

At the beginning of every week I like to sit down and map out how the rest of my week should go. What chores I need to do and when, places I need to go, when’s the best day to do my grocery shopping, even down to a list of what writings/lyrics/music I need to be focused on.

Today, I looked at my list and started about my day. Today was the day I planned on doing some deep cleaning. But, today just wasn’t good for me.

I was tired from all the going non stop so far this week and I was just not in the mood for deep cleaning.

So, I did the bare minimum. I did my usual everyday chores, I fed the horses then the dogs. I took a long, hot shower. I kicked back in my bed with my robe on, hair up in a towel and flipped through the TV looking for something for background noise. I picked out a cute outfit to wear instead of my usual workout clothes or jeans and a tank top. I put some curling cream in my hair and scrunched it all up. I even did my makeup, right down to the bright red lipstick.

Even though I love to have my lists and scheduled things to do, they don’t always go as planned.

I may have had a busy day planned for today and alot to get done, but God knew I needed something else. I needed to take care of me before I got overwhelmed. God knew I needed to clear my head.

God already has a road map planned out for us, and I promise, he isn’t looking at your calendar.

I am happy and content and God knew I needed that.

So, whenever your day doesn’t go as planned, don’t fret over it or don’t beat yourself up about it. Just take a deep breath and listen to what God has planned for you and why.

Others Thoughts are not of my Business

I have learned that it doesn’t matter what type of person you are or who you are, others are going to see what they want to see. They are only going to see their depiction of you.

It doesn’t matter what you say or how you say it, others are only going to hear what they want to hear.

It doesn’t matter how much good you do, others will only see the one time you screwed up and made a mistake. That’s all they will remember.

You can try to fill them up with your knowledge, and they will refuse it, because to them, you don’t know what you’re talking about and they won’t take the time to open their ears to listen.

You can scream and prove all day and every day, trying to convince them otherwise, but it will just be a waste of time.

Most folks have tunnel vision and are stuck in their own ways. You won’t be able to change their mind, it’s been set in stone.

So why do we waste our time trying to prove ourselves. No wonder we are exhausted all the time. No wonder we feel defeated. We are too busy trying to change a mind and convince a mind that will never change.

So, I choose to live for me and mine. I’m not trying to impress or explain who I am. Make up your mind about me how you see fit, someone else’s thoughts are none of my business.  Just know I’m not perfect.
But God loves me just the way I am and that’s all that matters…. oh and so does my dog.

Daytime Dates

The other day my husband decided to work from home, that way he could finally attend one of our sons football practices. Since the start of the season, he had to work late on practice days.

He made a comment to me about how we should snuggle in the bed and watch a movie or something, but I shrugged him off with a “I’ve got too much to do today for all that mess.”

As I was eatting my breakfast, of course I  scrolled through Facebook, and came across a blog that was labeled “trigger warning”.

Of course, curiosity got the best of me and I read it, but I’m glad i did.

The writing was a woman stating how she wished she could be intimate with her husband again, and you never realizing when the last time you would be intimate with your spouse. She wrote how their bed had once been full of passion and where their children were conceived, but now it’s the place where her husband was dying.

I paused for a moment, made a bag of popcorn, and snuggled with my husband as we watched a movie.

I realized that we never get these moments alone together. It’s rare that he’s home while the kids are at school, and when he is we are both so busy catching up on things around the house.

It was so enjoyable…. I told my hubby we should definitely do it more often. It’s so easy to let life come between a marriage and before you know it, the time has passed. Make time for each other. Stay intimate, have midday movie dates for no reason at all, just for the fact of snuggling in the bed.

It’s worth it….. everything else can wait, but life and time doesn’t.

Team Work Makes the Dream Work

“Ugh, I have so much to do today when I get home from work,” is what my husband said to me As he was leaving the house this morning to make is 2.5 hour one way drive to a job site he had to be on today.

I asked him if he was going to have a long day today, he replied, “most likely”.

I honestly felt really bad for him. He has been working a lot of weekends and hasn’t had time to do yard work and what nots. I have been busy as well with my schedule and the kids.

Today, after I got done feeding the animals, I said a silent prayer. I asked God to please relieve some of the overwhelming stress off of my husband’s shoulders. He is such a hardworking man who loves and provides for his family to no end.

God whispered in my ear, “why don’t you cut the grass?”

I thought to myself…. I guess I could do that. Oh but I may not have enough time. The yard is thick, I still have my chores to do, I need to work on my new song, then I have to go get the kids.

God replied, “Get as much done as you can, you can always finish later. A little bit is better than nothing.”

I thought, you know what, you’re right. My chores can wait until later. I want to do anything I can to relieve some stress off of my hunny.

So I cut the yard, well most of it. Then, I went to pick up the kids, came home and helped the kids with their homework, finished the yard and left to take my son to football practice.

On the kitchen table I left a note that read, “don’t worry about the yard darling boo, I took care of it for you. Just fire up the grill and chill.”

As I have stated before, marriage isn’t about rainbows and butterflies. It’s about having each other’s backs. It’s about picking up the slack for your spouse when they need it. It’s about working together.

I remember one night coming home from my daughter’s gymnastics practice. It was almost 8 o’clock. I picked up pizza because I knew I wouldn’t have time to make dinner. I walked through the door and my husband had finished putting the laundry away, put the dishes away, and fed all of the animals for me. I didn’t have time to finish when I left and was going to finish when I got home.

I thanked him like crazy and told him he didn’t have to do all of that. He replied, “well, it wouldn’t be fair for you to come home so late and have to do it all.”

That is a marriage. That is love.

As my kids always say when they are helping around the house “TEAM WORK MAKES THE DREAM WORK!”

My Happy Place

While scrolling through pictures today, I came across this one.

It was taken 3 years ago and I remembered captioning it “my happy place”.

To the blind eye, you see a happy young woman.

But in reality, I was struggling mentally at the time.

I remember this day very well. I was sitting at home and was overwhelmed and  feeling defeated, so I decided to drive to the lake.

I remember walking out on the dock, taking in a deep breath and just standing there in silence. Complete silence. The only sound was the water softly hitting the dock, the birds chirping, and an occasional sound of a fish jumping in the water.

I stayed in prayer the entire time. I remember praying for guidance and peace of mind.

After that I came home and started my blog.

I am in a much better place today. It’s so hard to believe that just a few short years ago, the smiling woman in the picture was having such a hard time.

It’s always a reminder that you never know what someone else is going through.

Just because they are smiling on the outside, doesn’t mean they are smiling on the inside. Be kind and show grace.

If you ever find yourself in your own time of struggle, remember to stay in prayer. God will pull you out in his time. Be patient, listen, and learn.

Weeds

Years ago when we first bought our land to put our house, the property was covered in weeds.

Not just any regular weeds, they were thick, bushy, and hard to control.

We plowed the property and planted grass seed. We watered it constantly and anytime a weed would try to make its ugly appearance, we would mow it down.

Eventually, we had a beautiful luscious lawn.

As time went on, being the yard was so big, it became too troublesome to keep up with. So we would “put off” mowing parts of it. We would always say, we will get it next time, but next time never came.

At first, the grass just got thick and tall. Then out of know where, the weeds were back and unmanageable. Before we knew it, our grass was gone in those areas.

This didn’t happen over night, it happened slowly.

Sometimes we tend to do that with ourselves. We let the stresses of everyday life consume us and we forget to nurture ourselves.

Then, before we know it, we are so full of anxiety and grief that we have forgotten how to be happy and how to enjoy life.

Don’t forget to take care of you. Don’t forget to fill your cup. Don’t put off mowing your grass, even if the yard seems too big. Weeds will eventually make their way thru, if you don’t take care of you.

Even if it’s just a little bit at a time, a little bit is better than nothing. 

God Doesn’t

The devil wants you to feel overwhelmed

The devil wants you to feel stressed

The devil wants you to feel doubtful

The devil wants you to feel insecure

The devil wants you to worry

The devil wants you to be angry

The devil wants you to be envious

The devil wants you to feel unworthy or incapable

The devil wants you to not like yourself

The devil wants you to feel unloved

God doesn’t!

Got wants you to give it all to him and rest

God wants you to be at peace

God wants you to feel loved, to be content, and to trust in him

If you are feeling any of the above, take a deep breath and give it to God.

The enemy will try to sneak in to steal your joy, but rest easy knowing that God is in your corner.

Some Days

Some days, I feel like the worst mom in the world.

Some days, I feel like I don’t do enough for my kids.

Some days, I beat myself up. Do I read enough books to them, do I play enough with them, do we spend enough one on one time together, do I listen enough when they are talking to me.

Some days, I feel guilty because  I just want to be left alone.

Some days, I let them over indulge in their devices with screen time because it makes my afternoon a little easier.

Some days, we don’t all sit down to dinner at the same time.

Some days, I let the not the best times outweigh the good.

Some days, I don’t give myself enough credit for how awesome of a mom I am.

Some days, I forget it’s ok to slack and give yourself a break.

Then, when I tuck my little ones down at night, and they wrap their arms around me and tell me how much they love me, I am reminded that I am exactly what they need.